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Wow. So it's been a realllyy long time since I've written. I think writing leads to dwelling, so I just didn't write. Another cross country season finished, another time I didn't make the cut. O well. It's not about me anyway...

This week of no texting/facebook is driving me insane. I keep saying Im strong. But im not. I'm so tempted to check messages. baaaa

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Pea Pickin' in July

It seems a bit hypocritical to write in a blog called "Running with God" if you've been "Running from God." But I'm coming back. Slow recovery. But I'm coming. Learning to be positive.

HALLELUJAH I CAN RUN!! Finally. 11 weeks of waiting. And I'm back. It'll be a slow come back. but its coming. Im telling u. I'll be back and better than ever.

I really have nothing to say. I'll just say this.

"Rarely are we ignorant of what God wants from us. We are not suffering from a lack of information. What we lack is the willingness to obey...in the case of Jonah, God used adversity to refocus his attention on what he had originally been asked to do."

-Charles Stanley

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Salvation has a new meaning. After four days of absolute torture and internal turmoil over my salvation and where i stood with God, i finally quit being stubborn and stupid and talked to Him. Got it all straightened out. I think I was saved, but had gotten astray and became unsure. So me and God talked it out. And so I just made sure I was right with Him. It feels so great. For that burden to be lifted. I thought I was gonna die in the service this morning. Like everything said, everything sung, everything just got on my heart. I tried ignoring it but it just kept getting worse. The invitation came, and I bout died cause I knew I needed to do something. But I refused.

Tonight, before services, pretty much all Coach White said was "I wonder how close you'll get tonight."

That killed me inside.

And i tried ignoring it again. But it didnt work. I finally gave in. And so thankful i did.

Once again, I am overwhelmingly thankful God put Coach White and his family in our lives. I don't think I would have ever got right with God if coach White hadn't been here. I dont know what it is. But he just knows how much to say to me and when to make me think on my own.

"Ask and you shall receive."

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Ode to...Sweet tea

Sweet tea is great

It's nice and cold

All can drink it

young or old

Large sweet teas

give me a sugar rush

But its sugary goodness

Is so lush

I drink tea

Every day

Some think Im addicted

But that's not what I say!

"The way you talk is hilarious"

I love communication. Seriously. I would die without it. I tried to go without talking to Coach White. That lasted around an hour. But not by surrendering. By choice. hahahaha

"It's funny how it takes somebody from North Carolina saying something to get you to listen."

-Eric Campbell, referring to:

"If you are a person that always has to have answers, you will NEVER have faith and find peace."

-Kahuna

True that...

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So I just got back from Snowbird. All I can say is...wow. I..can't explain the awesomeness and amazing-ness of God. AMAZING!

God's really been dealing with me about commitment. I pray that I stay committed and don't go back to "normal" life. Because what should be normal is that commitment. Can't let running come first anymore.

I'm so tired, but I'm so glad I went.

Thank ya JESUS!

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VBS Day 1

Found out Saturday that I was needed to teach 5th and 6th grade. Got the book Sunday at 4. I was tired today.

We played a game where the kids had to put Vaseline on their noses and then pick up cotton balls with their noses. They were "shearing sheep." It was hilarious to watch.

John Riley is determined to call me April. I don't know why.

The whole week, the lessons are about Peter and how Jesus chose him. How he struggled but still did great things by trusting in God. Should be really good.

Gearing up for Day 2 of "Boomerang Express"...Get to learn "Aussie Slang" tomorrow.

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